Madden Girl

by creamsikkle


Madden Girl wore red and black plaid skirts

and black boots with blue socks to match

her green foamy eyes

like glass pawns that glow and melt in the sun
Madden Girl felt that way sometimes
she didn’t remember how to make it
better
or worse

and she kicked off her boots at the door
and danced joyful and in tears
trying her best

but she didn’t know how
even with everyone around her to help
she tried to do what he saw as
golden
flawless
perfect

normal

she was normal
not tired
angry
no, gentle, very fragile
so fragile

and so she
left, the party and the people
and city
for her high vanilla clouds and creamy orange sky above
where her dreams played it cool

with strawberry pies and peach perfume
growing in hollowed apples sour as the
loneliness
[like alcohol stings in a cut]
Madden Girl was

but Madden Girl still wanted more
she kept higher and broke
more,
harder this time than before

and she tried not to cry this time
but her shoulders quivered
and Madden Girl let the salt ocean
blue
roll and sparkle and dance down her cheeks
hollow cheeks
wishing, whispering to be held
but,
too quietly

Madden Girl kept searching,
frustrated more this time

trudging through dealt and tomato soul. forks and sunflowers, stripes and nail-polish

Madden Girl didn’t
[think]
Madden Girl had any friends, but
she pretended for
Madden Girls sake

and the isolation
pained her
like cold burning in her fired numb arms, that traveled through her, pulsing, making her chest hurt

Madden Girl made things bad
“I make things bad.”
Madden Girl make things better
“Madden Girl can’t make things better.”
Madden Girl can’t?
“Madden Girl can do it.”
No. Madden Girl can’t make things better
“Madden Girl will!”
“Madden Girl will succeed!”
watch Madden Girl…
watch Madden Girl go…

as her emerald jewels closed to the world
they opened
to a new
world, and they made her see
there was more

but Madden Girl was too late to
close the garden gate
was too creaky
when Madden Girl escaped
she forgot to leave her
worries
behind in her dark room
where she truly was blind
alone
with only the coldness

and the Madness
of
Madden Girl
that became
Madden Girl
that is
Madden Girl

Madden Girl’s fury was slashed and raked Cross walls and rooms
not canvas
only in red
not blue
or green
only red, her color
The color of Madden Girl

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P.S.

Serena, don’t rant about copyright infringment regarding the beatles ;)

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